A List Of Questions From ECFE

So writing early. We just got back from ECFE. Noah's class. Peter is wiped out as he has been up since 10:30 and Noah just wanted to play in the basement and I really just wanted a nap. Well those of you who know me know I RARELY will nap but laying here is my version of one.

At ECFE Cindy (our parent teacher) shared with us a list of questions that her daughter asked her on the phone last night. She shared them with us as Mother's Day is approaching. She reminded us today that we are the most important people in the lives of our children and that our heart strings are so entangled that they will never come a part. She made some of us tear up. I plan to ask my Mom these questions on the phone tonight. But I thought I would answer them for Noah and Peter to the best of my ability today.

What's the one thing you would have done differently as a Mom?
Not perfect. But the Mom gig is still new to me, been doin it for 5 years. Is there one thing that stands out in my head as the one thing I would have done differently, or should have done differently? Not yet. Is there a list of a million little things, OMG YES!!!!

Why did you choose to be with my father?
That is easy to answer. I have always told you that Daddy is the first love of my life and because of the love I have for him I was able to have the two of you. Noah is the 2nd love of my life and Peter the third, the order is irrelevant, because the love for all three of you is overwhelming to me. So now the why part. First of all I noticed how handsome your Dad was back in 1996. His eyes, his smile, his build. I found him very attractive. And in 2009 I still see him that way. Then I got to know your Dad and built a friendship with him. I felt safe with him. I felt like I could tell him anything and everything. I have so much fun with your Dad. He makes me laugh. Your Dad is caring, considerate, compassionate, smart like no one else I know, dedicated, loving. Your Dad had surprises. Your Dad always encouraged me and believed in me. Your Dad was the balance in my life. Your Dad took care of me. Supportive. People like him. Your Dad loved me like I never thought I would be loved. I knew your Dad would make a good Dad, whenever that happened and he did!!!

In what ways do you think I'm like you?
Noah you have my intuition, my sensitivity, my emotions, my inquisitiveness, my enthusiasm, my heart, my compassion, my I don't want to miss a thing attitude about life, my interest in people, you are my extrovert!

Peter you are small but I can see you have my energy, my eyes, my playfulness, my I don't want to miss a thing attitude about life, my ability to genuinely love someone (especially your brother).

Which one of us kids did/do you like best?
You are both my favorites! I love you, like you, cherish you, love love love you both with every ounce of my being. So I could honestly never like you the same. I like you for different reasons. Noah you are my first and will always have a little something special because of that. I went through a lot of things with you first, I learned a lot from you on how I wanted to be a Mom, you taught me a lot and you taught me well! Noah I held/hold you a lot and kiss/kissed you a lot because you were my first. Peter you will benefit from what I learned from Noah. You are my last and will always have a little something special because of that. I hold you a little longer and kisss you a little more because you are my last baby.

You truly are both my favorites!!! I LOVE having boys!!!

Is there anything you have always wanted to tell me but never have?
THANKS!!! I thank God for the gift of being your Mom and I thank you two too! Thanks Thanks Thanks! Regardless of where you go in life, how hard it is along the way, the choices you make that I don't agree with, you are always my boys, my loves, my life, and I will always always always love love love you. I will always say THANKS for letting me be your Mom!

Do you think it's easier or harder to be a mother now than when you were raising our family?
I will get back to you on that one! Call me some day when you are boys are grown up and if you go down this wonderful path we will talk!

Is there anything you regret not having asked your parents?
Not that I am aware of because I am the type of person that will ask the question. My Mom always taught me to ask for what you want and if you don't get it you are no worse off than where you are currently at. So if I want to know something I tend to ask.

What's the best thing I can do for you right now?
Stay little. Seriously, I never want you to grow up. I know you will. I know I have no control of that. I know that you are both in a hurry to get there. But stay little. Slow down. Enjoy now. Life is wonderful and hard and all worth it but I just want you to stay little. So, I know you won't, but at least I asked!

Is there anything that you wish had been different between us-or that you would still like to change?
Not yet. So call me in 15 years and I am sure there will be something!

When did you realize that you were no longer a child?
I am not a child? I hope to always have part of me be a child. I suppose though it happened gradually. When I got married. When I bought our first house with your Dad. When at most holidays I no longer was at the kid table. When I had you and your brother. When my sister admires the person I have become and for some reason she hopes to have some of the same characteristics that I do. When my own children ask me questions and I realize that I am responsible for shaping their minds.

I am going to hang on to this list of questions and maybe some day one of you will call me or use whatever technology is out there and you will ask me these questions. I can't wait to see what the answers are. You are amazing people already!

How Sweet It Is!!!